My someday is today

someday I will stop thinking how we ended our relationship.
someday I will stop crying
someday I will stop trying
someday I will stop remembering
someday I will stop asking myself how I survive the pain you cause

someday I will not love you anymore.
someday I will not unhappy anymore.
someday I will not remember the pain.
someday I will not feel the hurt anymore.
someday I will not remember how these things happened.

because today

I will choose my second chance.
I will choose to  be forgiving.
I will choose to be free
I will choose to be happy again.

My someday is today

I'm going to press the button continue and move on.

I will now loosen my grip and let you go

Speak and stop being afraid

I was afraid to spoke out before, trying to understand other that those "other" might not understand me. 

I was Trying to understand them and thinking that my rebellious thoughts of mine may not like or understand.

Up to this day I was trying. 

My effort of trying was wrong, trying and trying so hard to understand people around me makes me sick and fed up.  

I thought I was not trying to please others but i was wrong I was keep trying pala. 

I want to end this fear now.

I don't want to be afraid anymore.

From now on I will not allow anyone to stop me for being me, to speak what's on my mind.  
I am free now. I can say anything I want to stay. I am not afraid anymore. 

and if anyone don't like what I say .